the dark.. my comfort zone..

Friday, July 30, 2004

9:51 PM

Hi guys! Hmm. Tmr is the NDP Preview~!!! Hahaha. Gonna be a First-Aider again! =) Quite excited about that but also not very excited...Hehe. Weird huh. Mixed feelings. Yea.
A Maths is not making any sense now...!!!

Thursday, July 29, 2004

10:12 PM

Apparently the Bishan MRT case was not suicide. According to news reports about 5 mins ago.

6:40 PM

Yesterday was National Track and Field. =) I was involved in the First-Aid. Well, my school got Second for C Division and Third for B Division.
Met Mei and Ryn after the whole event. We were supposed to go eat dinner as it was already 7.00p.m. Hmm. Ended up not being able to get out of that area. Dunno what bus to take and the Taxis were all full. Sigh. By the time we got out...I think it was erm...7.45p.m.? Yea. Ryn was all worked up about her sch work. They apparently have alot. ;)
We ended up taking a cab somewhere near the Nicoll Highway. At least the road sign said that. Haha. Mei was pretty funny there. We were all tired or walking so far and so she shouted, "God, we need a Taxi now. Please send a Taxi to us NOW!" Or something like that. Maybe more politely or more rudely...Hmm. I dunno. Hehehe.
So we got on the cab and sent Ryn home. Wow. She lives so near Jie. Haha. Then I sent Mei home. Her mom almost came to the bus stop outside her house to fetch her. Luckily she didn't! =) Whew. Yea. I was actually supposed to drop off before both of them but later decided to send them back. Hmm. Good or bad decision? You tell me. Hahahaha.
Walked Mei in a little...Till it was too close to her house. That would be...80 metres? Or maybe even a 100 metres. CAn't remember. Looked pretty far to me! Hehe.
By the time I got to the traffic light to cross and walk to the bus stop just on my left...The bus 70 was there at the bus stop already. I quickly pressed the button and hoped that it'll turn red before the bus came. Luckily it did! Whooo hoooo! Yep. Then I quickly crossed the road and ran down the pathway to the next bus stop 85 metres down. When I crossed the road, the green man was already blinking. Wah.
I got there just in time. Just as I stepped onto the bus stop, the bus came in behind me. And thankfully the bus driver stopped. Got in and took the bus. Dropped at Serangoon MRT and changed to bus 53. Got home at err...9+p.m. Bought some food to eat and went to my room. Didn't wanna explain to my dad why I had asked permission to go out and eat but didn't. Long story mah. Hehe.
Called Mei later at 10.30p.m. She was still doing Q.T so I called back at 10.35p.m. Talked for about 15 mins then she had to go and sleep. Too tired. =) Poor Mei. WEll, I went to sleep too. And thats all. =)

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

10:09 PM

Sigh. Mei and Ryn told me that someone commited suicide at Bishan MRT. =( So many deaths.. Whats happening to this world...? Is life so hard for the people around us? Was there no other way but to end your life?
After thinking from yesterday, I dun believe that. You chose the coward's way out of problems. I refuse to believe that there was no other way. You simply refused to look for one. You took the easy way out~!!!

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

9:22 PM

Sigh. Spent the whole day thinking. Suicide. Why kind of fear, sadness or troubles would drive one to end his/her own life? How strongly the person must feel that ending his/her life would solve everything. Would he/she be able to enter heaven and be with the Father? Will they?!?? Why does God leave us at times? It hurts me to think of a christian committing suicide. They might never be able to see Him, to be with Him. Condemned to the eternal flames of Hell. Will He be merciful and judge it case by case? But its said in the bible that he will never give us trials that we cannot handle. Maybe the person who is supposed to talk to them and help them chose not to? Due to other stuff they have to do.
Or maybe we should be scolding ourselves for not being there for them when they need someone...I dunno anymore! I'm lost! I dun understand...Need more time to think...Sigh.

3:00 PM

Whoo hoo. Today was a painful day! Hehe. I challenged Khairul Anwar Bin Ahmad Samson to a game. You know, the one you put your hands together and you slap the other person's till you miss and then its their turn..

Yea. Well, he hits really hard and fast. He started first and he started whacking me. At first it was hard to evade him. So I just let him hit lor. Hit, hit, hit, hit. Wow. It was painful man! Finally I managed to dodge and so it was my turn! Yae! The way I hit is slow but fast. Hmm. As in the time between each hit is very long. But the hitting itself is fast. Before long, he was in a lot of pain. But as you know, I would miss sometimes and its his turn and he'll hit me so my hand ended up getting swollen. =) It still is but yea, thats not the point. We played for the longest time in our class. If I'm not wrong it was 30 mins. Ended up with my thumb geting cut and started bleeding.

He was on the verge of giving up. If only my finger didn't bleed. I would have killed him! Sigh. So we agreed on a draw. ERG! So disgraceful. I should have been the winner! =( Oh well, so...I ended up with a hand thats swollen like mad and hurts when you touch it. Its all red and hot. And I can't bend my wrists or it'll hurt too. One thing I learnt from this is to never let giving up be an option. I never gave myself the chance to consider to give up. Maybe I should have. But, it would have been embarrasing. Now the bruises are spreading all over my wrist. Mmm.

One other thing happened today. I almost lost $10. Or actually, I did lose $10...But it was found somewhere else. Hmmz. Real weird. I came back to my form class from chinese class and put my bag(with my wallet INSIDE), and went to talk to some of my friends. I mean, thats what everyone else does right?? It should be safe inside your bag. Then after that, Mat came to me with my wallet and said he found it on the floor. So, I checked it and found $10 missing. I asked around and it so happened that my other friend saw Mat taking the wallet. Hmm. I still dunno who stole it. I guess its Mat. Anyway, my class had two other people losing only $10 only too. I had more money in my wallet but they only took $10. Same as the other two. So I asked the guys who lost their $10 bucks lor. Joel Chia. I real nice and likeable guy. I dun think anyone in the school hates him. Thats how good he is. Yea. Not the point again. I dunno what he did but yea. After a while, they found $10 dollars at the back of my friend's chair. It was all crumpled up. I know its not him. He wouldn't steal from me. So, I got my money back. Hmm. Yep. Thats all. Going off my blog now! Bye bye pple!

Monday, July 26, 2004

9:55 PM

Hi pple! Hmm. Feeling better from yesterday. Only two people tagged. Hahahaha. Yawn. I'm tired man. Guess, I'll just go to sleep now guys. Bye!

Sunday, July 25, 2004

10:16 PM

Hi dudes~! Today was a real bad day. At least it started getting bad somewhere in the middle...
Woke up in at 7.30a.m, went to bathe and iron my shirt after that. It was really crumpled so I took a very long time just to get it straight. Then I geled my hair. Yea. So after I finished, it was not too bad. But then it was time to go, and I hurriedly put on my T-shirt! It ruined my hair damn it~!!! Flattened it~!!! Grr. Everyone was telling me that the whole day~!! But there was nothing I could do about it~! I can't possibly re-gel it cause I didn't have a towel to dry my hair. So I walked about the whole day with flat hair. Sigh. =(
Worship was okay except it kinda started a little weirdly. Maybe you can call it without warning. Yea. Not major. Another thing was that Shimu wasn't facing the audience. I dunno the reason but I bet there was a reason that would explain it. Yep. But I still enjoyed it on the whole! Whoo hoo! =) Hehe.
After worship was the sermon. I think that Pastor is a little too excited. But hey, its not often that you have a Pastor who is so excited about sharing the word of God! Mushi was very good in translating. I thought he had the script in front of him all through the sermon till I heard from others that he didn't. So you can guess how good he was right? Hahahaha.
Then after service the youths were split into two groups. One to go through the QBM and one to have group sharing in the youth room! YAE! I've been waiting for this to happen. Not because I don't have to go for QBM but because whenever there is combined worship, there will be no sharing and bible reading. Used to dread those days when it was combined worship. I'm sure some of ya out there agree with me. Like Marcus right? *grin* Yea. Sharing was nice. In the old days we shared as a whole youth.. Nowdays its only in our groups.. Mmm. Today was like the old days. Feels so good to be back in the olden way for once.. Feels so much better. The WHOLE youth sharing and talking together for that period of time.. Miss it.. Sigh.. Then was lunch. Then choir prac. I think I'm getting a hang of it. Keep forgetting to bring my score.. Hard to play without it. Hehe. After the whole thing, we decided to go to Shimu's house for dinner. While I went to Bishan... ... ...
It was 3.30p.m. at that time, I took the train till Tanah Merah MRT so that by the time I took it back the correct direction to Bishan, it would be 4.30p.m. I really reached there at exactly 4.30p.m.! HAHAHAHA! Went to confirm the flower first. Then I went to the toilet to tidy up. Collected the flowers and sat at the MRT at 4.55p.m. They were supposed to come at 5.00p.m. At 5.05p.m, I called Dinis. Said they just got out from the swimming pool. ASked me to wait till 5.30p.m. So, just a little irritated, I waited patiently till 5.30p.m. 5.30p.m...5.31p.m...right up to 5.35p.m...I waited. More irrated then before, I called Dinis. Said they were going to CUT the Birthday cake. Said they'll be down in a few mins. So I accepted that. 5.45p.m. Much MUCH MUCH more irritated. I called Dinis. THEY WERE STILL EATING THE CAKE~!!!~!!!~!!!~!!! I knew Grace had to leave her house by 6p.m. for mass. Dinis told me she couldn't come down anymore. Too late. Man. Did my blood boil~!!! I waited more than 1 hour and 30mins and they told me to just go~?!?!?!? In the end Dinis said she'll come down with Mel and pass me the neoprint. She said they were on the way...Guess what time they finally came down? 6.25P.M.~!!! I called her to ask her where she was and she had the decency to shout at me that they were coming and hung up on me. WHAT THE HELL MAN! And when I finally saw them from a distance, THEY WERE WALKING~!!!!! ARGH~!!!! THEY HAD THE BLOODY CHEEK TO WALK~!!!! I TOLD THEM I WAS ALREADY LATE~!!!!Am I not supposed to be angry??? AM I~????
Took the neoprint from them and took the train back to Pasir Ris. Then took Bus 3 to Shimu's house. By the time I got there, it was 7.35p.m. and noone was eating. Finshed. So I ate by myself! We all left at 8.45p.m if I'm not wrong. Yep. Walked with Leney and Shimu to the bus stop. 53 came, Leney left. Me and Shimu walked to the traffic light, she turned right to go back to her house and I turned left to go back to mine. REached home, bathed, sleep. Had a very bad headache. Anger the cause of it? Hmm. I dunno. Thats all. See ya guys tmr! BYe for now!

Saturday, July 24, 2004

10:45 PM

Yo. Just updating for so that I'll have an update today! Hehehe. Bye dudes. Decided to lengthen my next story. Two person views and all that. Will be much better. Okie. Gtg! Tata!

Friday, July 23, 2004

3:18 PM

Hmm. Was getting so bored online that Crys told me to update. Haha. I'm trying...Yep. ERm. Well, I'm listening to "All Out Of Love" now. At least thats the song that playing right now. Quite a peaceful song. Hehe.
School was good today. Chemistry, we learnt how to calculate no. of moles, mass, volume, and all that. Was fun! Hehe. *grin* Then during E Maths after recess, I did the work assigned, did the report on the VIs and did A Maths homework. =) Pretty productive. HAHAHAHAHA~!!!
I want to complete another compo. Gonna try to complete one after this...And maybe put here...Yep. Bye then! ;)

Thursday, July 22, 2004

10:13 PM

Mei is getting 2 6230s! And here I am stuck with this pathetic excuse for a phone, 3120.. No fair. No camera to take pictures. Speaking about cameras, mine is with Mubarak, and he is sick! How am I gonna get it back. I need it on Sat lehz. Mrs Rag might just kill me if I don't bring it on Sat. Yea. Nth else to say. Bye dudes.

P.S. My 2.4 timing was 11 mins! Whoo hoo! Last year was 14 mins, start of this year was 12.30 mins...And the thing is, I never did train~!!! Haha.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

9:51 PM

I've been updating everyday till I can't think of titles for the entries. I know you guys can't see the titles but still...I want them to be nice. Hmm.
Anyway, in case anyone out there doesn't know, Kat's baby was born at 3.25a.m. this morning! Thats cool huh? Hahaha. Sigh. He's called Brian! Yea.
Today was the end of the Learning Styles course...Finally. I've been sleeping earlier this week cause of it. Staying back everyday is tiring...and I guess I haven't really recovered from last Sat and Sun. Still tired out...Sucks to be so out of energy... ... ... ...Feel like dying...
Two people around me are cutting their wrists...arms...Yea. CAn't seem to help them. I warned both of them to be ready for the pain at the end....As no human relationship during our teenage years lasts for ever...especially the first ones. They gave me reassurances that they'll be ok. First times are hell. I don't mean not having any relationships is better. But wait till both parties are mature enough to know that you don't break with the other person just because you've lost the "feeling". Learnt from Lf that commitment should be what holds the relationship together through tough times...Hmm. Guess it all boils down to the point, Love is blind. Thats so so true... ... ... ...
Nite guys.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

10:26 PM

Yo yo yo...Sigh. Tired. Today's sch was boring. Other than History. Learnt about Hitler and his climb. Great Depression. Chinese class was also not too bad. Finished watching the movie that I talked about in one of my past entries last week. Nice ending. Sad story.
When my mum came back earlier, I realised I didn't see her since Sat morning. I was out from 7.00a.m. till 1.00a.m. on Sunday. Then Sunday night she was working, came back at 10.15p.m...I slept at 9p.m. Monday night I slept at 10p.m.(I think) But anyway, she came back after I went to sleep. Yea. Quite shocking. I used to see her everyday. Hmm.
Nth much else to say lehz. Yawn. Guess I'll just retire from this and sleep...Night pple!

Monday, July 19, 2004

9:55 PM

I missed 2 days of updating! Sigh. I'll tell ya what happened on those two days later! Hmm. today's school was fun. Mr K.C.K is leaving tmr morning for China. Dunno what for. He'll be gone for two weeks. And since he has taught all the chapters needed for the CA2, I'm glad he has left. =)
Another thing is that we had the Learning Styles course earlier from 2.45p.m. to 5.45p.m. It was very interesting. I now know how I learn. The conditions I need. Haha. Those two guys who taught the course are Multimillionaires! Cool man! And they got that money before they reached 30~! Whoo hoo! Yea.
Okay. Time for the past two days.

Sat - 17/07/04
Woke up at 7a.m. and Dad fetched me to the Touch Community Centre at Marine Parade. Many schools were there. Did Flag day...Left at 11a.m. to go to The Red Cross House at near Dhoby Ghaut MRT. Reached late and got scolded by the Madm and Sirs. =( Well, eventually I got changed and went to fall in with the rest. Had a uniform check and received our $14 allowance and a Walkie Talkie for each pair. Then the bus came to fetch us to the National Stadium. It was the NDP Parade preview for the Primary 5 students. We were the first aiders! Haha. Ate our lunch at the Stadium from 2.30p.m. - 2.45p.m. Then we were separated into our pairs. Everyone VS guy was paired with one CHIJ Toa Payoh girl. That ended up with...5 pairs. I was with the treasurer(Sec 3) of CHIJ Toa Payoh's Red Cross Unit. Her name was erm...Alycia. She was kinda funny. Talked to her alot about the previous competitions that both our schs took part in and all that. Ended up laughing quite abit. Yea. Mark and Deon(I think) were with Sec 2 cadets, Bing Quan and Ernest were with Sec 3s like me. We started our duty at 3.00p.m. Stood(In Senang Diri[Dunno how to spell.]) and did our duty all the way till 8.45p.m. Then the parade ended and they were dismissed...SLOWLY. Man. By the time they all left, it was already 10p.m.(We had to stand all through the time they were dismissed. So in total we stood for...something like 7 hours...Then we had a debrief till 10.15.pm. After which we left the stadium and waited for our buses...which never came! Waited till 11.15p.m. The Sirs and Madms decided to bring us back to The Red Cross House in taxis. Reached The Red Cross House at 11.45p.m. Then we were split into which part of Singapore we lived in and sent home via Taxis.

Sunday - 18/07/04
Ended up reaching home at...1.00a.m. I rushed to bathe and sleep as I had to wake up at 7a.m. and go to church. Sunday! Had church mahz. Yep. My alarm sounded at 7.15a.m, but I switched it off and changed it to 7.45a.m. Hehehehehe. ; ) Church was okay...Worship...couldn't really relate to it. Found I couldn't sing with a stable voice so I didn't. Was very tired. Haha. Lots of songs I'm not sure of or not able to sing well. Yea. So I didn't really sing.. Had lunch then Choir prac. I'm drummer for the next church event...for one song. Hehehe. Been practicing, kinda getting there I think. Mushi says I can just put in my own fill ins, but I wanna do the actual ones. Dun wanna let him down in a way. Yea. Zc can do it. I'm sure I can do it too. =)After that some of us jammed. That was the fun part. Hehe. Yep. Then the rest came down and we all left the church. Me and my bro went home, Uncle went to work at Breeks and the rest went to The Cave for dinner. Ate dinner at home. Went to read a book for one hour then went to sleep at erm...9p.m. Had a good sleep. Yae! But not long enough.

Haha. Yea yea. Since its not long enough...I'm gonna go and sleep right now~! Hahahaha! Bye people!

Friday, July 16, 2004

9:24 PM

Hi dudes! Hmm. It sure is getting tiring to update everyday...But I wanna keep it up. =) Yea. Sch was nice today. Watched this movie for chinese lesson, the title in english is "Carrying my father to school on my back" or "Bei zhe ba ba sang xue qi" Sorry if the han yu ping ying is wrong. Brain not working well on chinese now. Hehe.
I got promoted to Corporal! Not much I know...but yea...I've only been there for one year. So, its not too bad.
Anyway, Crystal lost her handphone...Bus 173 if I'm not wrong. Anyone got an extra phone to lend for 3-4 weeks? Sms me! I'll do some stuff. Haha. Ahem ahem. Yup.
Tmr my class is going to Marine Parade to do Flag Day. Think i'm gonna bring along a whole lot of coins and just throw it in. Then go shopping! Hehe. Irresponsible, but I'm sick of all these Flag days. ;) Then after that I'm going for some First Aid duty. Hahahaha. Sigh. At night gonna go out for dinner with family again. Every Sat night is the night for family dinner. *smile*
Going off now pple! See ya again tmr! Same time, same channel! This is Daniel, over and out!

Thursday, July 15, 2004

10:04 PM

Yo everyone! Whats up man? HAHAHAHA~! Means girls rock! Lindsay Lohan is the coolest gal~! ;) Sigh. Watched Spiderman 2 earlier. At 4.15p.m all the way to 6.25p.m.. Met Daniel Bey, Weiting and this other guy from track also. Can't remember his name although I trained with him. Hmm. Then went to walk around till 7.00p.m. Went to buy burger King and went inside the cinema to eat. I watched Mean Girls at 7.15p.m. - 8.55p.m. Loved it man! Haha. After that collected my dad's dinner from my mum and brought it home to my dad. Now I'm home. Hehehe. Yawn. Gonna sleep...Stupid eyebags! Grr. Take care dudes! Tmr is Crys's Birthday! Ill take this chance to wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY~! And on the 20th is Ryn's Birthday. Happy Birthday to ya too! BYE!

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

10:30 PM

Hey hey hey pple! Hehe. So bored right now! Wish there's something to do. Finished all my work already. Sigh. *yawn* Getting tired too. Jie just came back today! Haha. Missed ya lots jie! Welcome back!!!
Oki. Tried typing yet another compo today. Wrote the start, the end. CAn't fill up the centre. HMm. I write purely on inspiration from books I read, shows I watch, or just things I hear or see. So if the inspiration runs out, say goodbye to the story. You'll never see it. Cause I don't put unfinished stories on my blogs. So far I managed to finish one. But it was very lousy and short. So embarassed by it. Some people did say it was nice. I used to, but I don't think so anymore. HEhehehehe. Yea.
Gonna go sleep now. Need my rest. Didn't wanna go to sch today cause I was so tired. Haha. Nite dudes!

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

4:16 PM

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4:02 PM

Hi dudes! Manz. Everyone on MSN is 'Away'. Real boring. What am I supposed to do? Hehe. School today was okay. Nothing bad happened. Yea. Hmm. Got an English and a Chinese compo to do. Sigh. Tough titles. I'll do it later. Yea.
Hmm. Tmr I'll have to stay back till about 6 plus in school...First, Chemistry remedial for the whole class, then Physics make-up. Hate going home so late...The bus will be so full! Haha. Okay. Going off now...See ya!

Monday, July 12, 2004

4:16 PM

Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
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on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
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Sunday, July 11, 2004

10:23 PM

I've been thinking about this for a long long time...Everytime I have an argument with my Dad, my Mum, Brothers...Always felt like crap after it all. So, whats the use...??? Why argue??? Sigh. It all comes down to maybe, human pride? Not wanting to appear to have lost in the "fight"? So we keep answering back with fiery words to the already heated argument. Makes it even worse. Is there another way out of it all? Not counting controlling yourself and not answering back? Hmm. I think I'll let my subconscience take over for now. Not like its gonna be any use, but yea.
Anyway, wanna share something. On friday night, my Dad was like kinda getting angry with me. I can't rememebr what he said but I got angry. Then I went to my diary(Diaryland. I didnt have this account yet~!)and put the 'Perfect' song by Simple Plan on my template and viewed my diary. The music started. I kept quiet.

"Hey Dad look at me,
Think back and talk to me.
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time,
Doing things I wanna do.
But it hurts when you disapprove all along.

And now I try hard to make it.
I just wanna make you proud!
I'm never gonna be good enough for you!
Can't pretend that I'm alright,
And you change me.

Cause we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever.
I'm sorry I can't be perfect!
Now it's just too late.
And we can't go back,
I'm sorry I can't be perfect!

I try not to think,
About the pain I feel inside.
Do you know you used to be my hero.
All the days you spent with me,
Now seem so far away.
And it feels like you don't care anymore.

And now I try hard to make it.
I just wanna make you proud!
I'm never gonna be good enough for you!
I can't stand another fight,
And nothing's alright.

Cause we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever.
I'm sorry I can't be perfect!
Now it's just too late.
And we can't go back,
I'm sorry I can't be perfect!"

Thats part of the song. Still left one or two paragraphs. Can't be bothered to type anymore...These few paragraphs hold all the gist of the song. After that I went to bathe. When I came out he said I could go for the worship prac on Sat which was yesterday. Yea. Dunno whether it was beacause he heard the lyrics...I dunno. Hmm. Then earlier in the car he said to me, "You have to take care of your own studies. I won't check so much anymore, but you must really study. If you need any help I'll be at the dining table. I'm sure you don't like people breathing down your back..." Yea. Along those lines.
Well, I'm happy now. I'll study and won't rebel so much. It'll sure make studying easier. He's more leinient now. He lets me out more. I musnt't let him down. I'm gonna study. I will. Thanks Dad. And thank you God~! You know I love you two right? I do. I'm sorry for the past stuff Ive done to make you two angry.
Gonna go off and bathe, then sleep. Sch's on tmr! BYe dudes!

6:59 PM

HAHAHAHA! Guess you can already see what I wanna say by my title. :) This template I got is so nice!(I saw it on someone else's blog though...Hmm. Can't remember who.)Whoo hoo! This template is whats making me stay! *grin* Tag me yea? I got myself a tagboard. Okay. Going to Mushi's house for dinner! Bbye!!!

Friday, July 09, 2004

7:18 PM

Hi pple! Wondering if I should shift here. Hmm. Can put music and all that here. Still deciding. Testing this place out. Over out!