the dark.. my comfort zone..

Saturday, July 30, 2005

4:51 PM

The apostle Paul pleaded with the Lord to take away an unidentified source of suffering. But the Lord declined saying, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." "Therefore," said Paul, "most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong" (2 Corinthians 12:9-10). Paul learned that he would rather be with Christ in suffering than without Christ in good health and pleasant circumstances.

Friday, July 29, 2005

8:15 PM

Hey.. No time is my new motto. Haha..
Sch and studies and all.. Time is pretty tight right now. Mmmhmm. Sch till 6p.m. everyday.. Then by the time I get home its like.. 7.15p.m.? Eat dinner then gotta start work again.. Till about 10+p.m 11p.m.. After that have to go sleep if not I will be very tired the next day and can't study properly.. Crap.
So many other thinga right now I wanna do but I can't. Gonna have to leave everything at the side right now. Nothing will distract me or stop me from doing what I need to do.. I wanna play drums.. But it looks like I'll only be allowed to play after Os.. Many other stuff..
*sigh* Os Os Os Os Os.. I'm tired.. I need to ask Mr Koh and Mr Chan and Mrs Lee Kian Soon for personal tuition after sch.. But dunno how to open my mouth and ask.. Do I have a right to ask for something like this? I dunno.. Not sure if they will be free or even willing to help.. I think Mr Koh will la. Chan too cause I know them. Dunno Lee Kian Soon. Yup. Mmmmmm.
Kk. Got a headache now. I'll go study for a while then go sleep le.. Bye peeps.. :(

Thursday, July 28, 2005

8:17 PM

We need to talk.. Yea. Tmr you ain't free so.. some other time then.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

7:15 PM

The channel 8 show was so familiar.. Haha.. The scene that is. :) Except some diffs la.. *grin*
Monday - 25th July 2005
Fell sick.. My whole body was like burning up the entire day la.. Yea.. I held out till 4.30p.m. when I smsed Mum to fetch me from sch. She said she could only come at 5.30p.m. so yea.. At least better than taking bus back when school finished at 6p.m. Yup.
Came home slept till 7.30p.m, bathed, then ate dinner.. After that Dad made me stay awake and do work till 10p.m. when I was finally allowed to sleep. Yea. Mum made me take some pill to ease the fever.. Mmhm. And make me drowsy.
Went to sleep. :)
Today - 26th July 2005
Woke up this morning feeling alright.. Mmhm. It was raining so heavily. At sch was bad la.. Yup. Took my temperature.. It was still 37.2 degrees celsius.. Yup yup. Whole day was kinda fine. Mmmmm. Now going to study.. Yea.. Bbye peeps..

Sunday, July 24, 2005

9:33 PM

Whats happening? I dun understand.. :( You angry with me or something DD? Maybe I'm thinking too much. Dunno. Tell me. Pls. Yea. Maybe you read that post of mine. Mmmmm. Whatever it is. Tell me yea? Nite.

8:33 PM

My throat is so sore man.. *coughs* urgh.. the feeling sucks.
Today I thought had Choir Prac after church.. Haha. That's why I stayed back.. But then, dunno why dun have.. Haha. It's ok. No prob. So I asked Jose where she's gg so I can tag along.
She said go play pool so ok lor. Haha. That was about 2.30p.m+.. My throat was so dry and all.. But I thought that I could get a drink when we reached PS.. Took a bus down to Serangoon MRT. Then change to 147. Jose said it goes to PS.. Hmmm. But we never did reach.. Maybe we missed the stop bah.. I got more and more worried as we passed places like Chinatown, Bukit Merah, Kallang Bahru, Tiong Bahru.. and by the time we got off, it was Queenstown. Lol.. By that time it was already 4.30p.m+ i think. Yupyup. Changed to bus 153 back to Serangoon.. Changed to bus 81 and went home.. Yup.
Whole afternoon gone. Came home and fell asleep till 8p.m. Then ate dinner and now watching E.T. Haha. Thats my whole day.. Mmhm. *sigh*

Saturday, July 23, 2005

8:42 PM

VS Eco Pond
(c) dwws89

Sunday, July 17, 2005

8:40 PM

You have no right to tell me what to do. SO DUN TELL ME WHAT TO OR WHAT NOT TO DO.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

6:38 PM

Mixed Feelings
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Hate, what does it mean?
Love, why can't it be seen?
Hurt, why do I cry?
Sad, why do I wish to die?
Lonely, why do I feel this way?
Happiness, why won't it stay?
Anger, why do I see red?
Jealousy, why do I wish you dead?
Pain, why does it feel so bad?
Depressed, I'm going mad.
Insanity, why can't I die now?
I've gotta end this life somehow.
Written by : Victoria Koh
Copyrighted.

Monday, July 11, 2005

10:17 PM

Kinda happy and yet in pain.. Haha..
Chem paper was today, dun wanna talk about it.. Mmmhm. After school, left for home to bathe and get changed. Then headed down to TKSS to pick mei mei up to go to ECP. We went blading there.. Mushi, Leney, Ade, LF, Shimu, her two kids and her bro's kid(if i'm not wrong) were there too.. Yup. But we went our own way, thanks to my dear mei mei.. Who refused to pick up speed.. :( I always seem to be separating from the group when I go blading.. Yup.
Fell down lotsa times too, thanks to mei mei. Haha. :P She kept chasing me la, pulling my t-shirt.. So I kept picking up speed up to the extent that I can't control myself properly.. Mmhm. Got a cut on my left calf, as big as your palm.. Another on my thigh just below my ass, the size of a circle with a 4 cm radius.. And a small one the size of a 20 cent coin on my elbow.. Or near it la.. Yup. Hmmm. I've just realised that I can't classify these as "a cut".. Haha. Cause its an AREA OF CUTS.. Hehehe. Or to put it in a nicer term, patch.. Yup.
Besides that, I'm pretty tired out. Gonna sleep before 12a.m. for once.. Mei mei dun call me! I won't call ya tonight too.. Haha. I need to sleep..
Oh yea. Bought the Spiderman book I've been wanting to read for ages!! Never had the second and third books of the trilogy. Now I've got them from Popular! Haha. :D I'm so happy! :) Its the Revenge Of The Sinister Six! :) Can't stop smiling! :) Haha. :) Mmmmmm.
No school tmr. Yup yup.
Dunno when I'll be playing drums again. Haha. Exams are over and I guess I'm free to start playing again. *hint hint* Wahahaha. Yin Ling is waiting to see me play too.. Yup. Haha. Should get Vic to see me play too.. She hasn't yet. Yup. If she wants. Yup. I'm just.. serving You.. In the best way I can. Mmhm.
Kk. I can't think of anything else to blog about so here I come, DREAMLAND!
Nite!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

4:34 PM

Breathing - Lifehouse
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I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
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Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
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I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And I'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me one more time
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Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
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Oh I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da La da da da da da..
Cause I just wanna be here now
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Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
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Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Where I wanna be

Friday, July 08, 2005

10:00 PM

Hey.. I can't be going down this path again. I can't. Stop me! Yup. Pls? Somebody. I'm supposed to have learnt my mistakes and not go down this stupid road where I'll get hurt.. *Sigh*
Oh wells. My blog getting more vulgar? I don't think so. But even if it was, I'm sure most of you would forgive me. Yup. MOST. Dunno if EVERYONE will. Yup. I only said "bloody" and "crap" mah. not like I'm swearing or whatever.
Kk. Youfu wasn't nice.. Stupid ending.. Yupyup. So sad. Yup.
Why am I so stupid? Sheesh.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

1:00 PM

this is juz going nuts..can u stop doing those stuffs..stop hurting urself alrite..it's pointless okie..u keep saying u cannot forget..but do u even try forgetting?dun keep saying u cannot if u dun even wish to try..it will never work obviously..i'm not trying to be mean here..but i find tht u are trying to make me feel guilty..anyway....wats over is over...if u really love me...you should want the best for me...STOP being childish for the moment..concentrate on whatever you need to do first get your piorities right..bu yao wei le yi ke shu fang qi zheng ge shu lin..it pointless..you are still so young too..you should find someone else who will love you back for who you are..

Friday, July 01, 2005

12:32 PM

Heylo peeps.. A Math paper was earlier.. Yup. Finished at like, 10a.m. la. Then I didn't want to stay in sch till 2p.m. for my Chinese O Level Oral Exams. Mmhm. So I came home first lor. Took a bath, came online.. Now gonna leave le. Haha.