Monday, December 31, 2007
12:37 AM
Wasted Time - Fuel
Say it to my face
Look me in the eyes
And say what you have to say
You know we can't erase these words before goodbye
And turn the final page
Ahh here comes alone again
Everything's broken
Everything's vacant
Everything's wasted time again
Sentiments hopeless
Innocence jaded
Everything's wasted time again
And so we leave this stage
And all our best read lines
And all the acts we played
So say you wanna leave
And say we never held the way we always hoped we'd try
And say hello to alone again
'Cause, everything's broken
Everything's vacant
Everything's wasted time again
Sentiments hopeless
Innocence jaded
Everything's wasted time again
Ahh someday we might find
Some sacred place in time
But until then all we'll share
Are dreams we've left behind
'Cause everything's broken
Everything's vacant
Everything's wasted time again
Ahh, yeah!
Everything's broken
Everything's vacant
Everything's wasted time again
Sentiments hopeless
Innocence jaded
Everything's wasted time again
Everything's broken
Everything's vacant
Everything's wasted time again
Sentiments hopeless
Innocence jaded
Everything's wasted time again
Everything is broken
Everything is wasted time
Everything is broken
Everything is wasted time
Sunday, December 30, 2007
6:56 PM
Music is SO beautiful..
ESPECIALLY after you spend over a week without music.. Hahaha..
Sunday, December 23, 2007
11:25 PM
How much can you trust promises? Mmmmmm.. Overreacting? Thinking too much? Expecting too much? I dunno..
It's tough to keep up on promises.. But you just need the conscious effort to.. And of course, you must remember just what your promise comprises of.. and keep to it.
Guess I can't expect that of anyone still...
Oh well. Life's like this.. Haha.. Mmmmmm..
Waiting waiting, I'm sitting here and waiting..
Thursday, December 20, 2007
11:44 AM
Back from army! Tekong! Quebec Platoon 3 Section 4 Bed 1! Hahaha.. =D
I was back yesterday at 7.30 p.m. but yea.. Too tired to blog last night though..
Well, the first two nights I was kinda fine. Other people couldn't adjust to the new environment and thus couldn't get to sleep. But I slept with absolutely no difficulty.. On the third night onwards, it was me who had a lil trouble sleeping.. Haha. Yea.. It does get pretty lonely at night. When you switch on your phone and find nothing.. Then it just becomes the case whereby your battery is wasting away without a reason..
It is a really drastic change from a civilian life.. Your time is no longer yours.. You become someone ordered around, which is to be expected as you should listen to your superiors.. Just as you would expect your men to listen to you when you become an officer.. The officers did allow us alot of time to adjust.. But still, its not really enough.. Its still hard to adjust..
At bad times, some of us feel like prisoners, which I know isn't the case but yea.. You still do feel that way. Esp on Rocky Hill.. Isolated.. If you know what I mean.. *sigh*
Then sometimes I think its better to be inside there. Cause inside, there's no time to think, no time at all.
Yea, you do miss people.. Miss stuff from your civilian life, but still it's much much simpler inside there then back home.
For example, I just got home yesterday and there was this huge argument.. I wasn't involved la, but yea.. Still.. Mmmmmm..
The only thing you think about it how not to get punished.. Making sure you get wherever you're told to get to by the time you were told to be there.. Remembering to bring everything you need to bring and not having to rush all the way up the long flights of stairs to your bunk.. Running when your legs want to give way. Pulling when your arms are screaming for enough time to rest. In a way, we'd build muscles faster this way, but still, it's hard to push yourself harder than you ever did before. And that's saying alot..
Perhaps it's better to stay in then out.. Perhaps I should stay in on weekends too.. Lol.. But then, even this short break from the life of a soldier means the world to me..
Thank You, Lord.. For these many hols during the first two weeks of my NS life..
Thank You, Lord.. For my bunk mates.. Esp Reuben, Prem and Samuel.. Reuben and Prem as they are the closest people to me in the bunk. For Samuel, as without him, I would have gave up during route march..
Thank You.. Lord..
BOTAK IS TEMPORARY! HANDSOME IS FOREVER!
TOUGH TIMES DON'T LAST! TOUGH MEN DO!
PLATOON THREE! DRINK UP!
Friday, December 14, 2007
11:02 PM
GOODBYE, EVERYONE!! =((
I'll see you guys again either on the 19th or 20th. Anyone picking me up? LOL. Can sms me. =)
Got enough people sending me off so now looking for people to pick me up. =P
Thursday, December 13, 2007
11:41 PM
I'm feeling so old.. Haha..
Dixon is leaving tmr morning for our fav and famous Tekong "CHALET"! Mmmmm.
Started thinking about how old I feel, from when we were out shopping and hanging out. Thinking about how fast it's been. These two years. Heh. FLASH, and JC is over. FLASH, and my bros are out of NS and now its MY TURN. Lol.. They're coming out, I'm going in..
Spent the last hour or so going through all the files in my com. All the pics, all the convos saved, all the special songs received.. Its really a lot of stuff that I've kept even from my previous computer..
Even more so, I'm feeling the past breezing past me.. I can still remember so many things from the past just listening to ONE song. Tong Hua. Not many people know why. Haha.. That's why everytime I sing the song, I take it really seriously. That's why everytime I sing the song, I sing with my heart.. Hahaha. Yup. Don't mistake me shutting my eyes tightly together as being cause I'm struggling to sing the song. LOL. Though I DO struggle with the song, as MANY other people would, that's not the reason. =P
Well, bye Dixon! I'll see you in about, 1 day? LOL. We're both in BMTC School 1.. =D And we'll be out VERY SOON. About 5 days approximately? Heh. =) Yep yep.
I myself will be entering Tekong "Chalet" on Sat, 0800 hrs. Anyone sending me off?? Haha. Other than those I already know who are la. Tag me and tell me. =))
Come beside me, whisper into my ear and tell me I'm not old.. Cause it's hard not to feel like this now..
I'm scared.. Scared of the future.. Not knowing what it may hold in store for me..
Tell me you'll be by my side, always and forever.. And then, perhaps I'd feel better for just a little while..
That's enough for me.. That's all I need..
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
1:26 AM
=((
Maybe I should go clubbing with the rest tmr. lol..
Saturday, December 08, 2007
9:52 PM
3/12/07
Prom Night! Haha. Finally it came. And finally its over. =D
After all the days of endless shopping, be it the main outfit itself or the little nitty gritty details, it sure was tiring. Heh. Mmmmm.
Wouldn't say it was a hell lot of fun, but at least it was fun enough. That's good enough for me. The last chapter of our JC days, is now to be closed with these pics..
Happy viewing. I'll be posting up pics as soon as I get them. So far only have these few. =)
4 of the 06s26 guys. Dixon, Edwin, Me and Dickson.
Me and Shai =D
Me and Chuan Ting.
Irene and Me.
Me and Shu Ning. She looked really great. Haha. =)
Me and Pricillia
Library study partners! Theo, Me, Desmond and Sheila. Haha.
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3/12/07 - 5/12/07
Chalet!
Only took pics on the last day, and that's a good thing. =D
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6/12/07 - 8/12/07
Church Camp
On the ferry to Kampong Ubin!
Still on the way..
Still on the way..
Marcus acting cute! Haha.
Still on the way..
FINALLY. Hahaha. The jetty of Kampong Ubin..
We were at KAMPONG UBIN.
Wyman in our guys' dorm. Looking spastic. LOL. =D
On the 2nd day, we had something like the Amazing Race around Ubin. Dunno how many times I've been through this le. Ahhhhh..
Well, one of the stations was the quarry.
Where our task was to take a picture with each of us in a different animal pose. Tada. =D
Now, more pics of the quarry..
Now, pics of Ubin. Beautiful nature..
Big spider..
Dead monitor lizard..
Thursday, December 06, 2007
8:49 AM
It was just a simple "sorry for what I said" sms. Couldn't you have just accepted it as it was??
Now, look what's happened??
Granted, I don't like who I was last night. I am that way once in a long while, when I'm too pissed and too tired to hold myself back. The claws were unsheathed, no attention was paid to keeping any survivors.. It was just a massacre, one which both of us were part of.
I'm here to apologise for that. Cause I won't be able to live with myself if I didn't. Cause this time, it's different from the time when I could just sit back and chill, like I did with the person whom we mutually hate.
As I said, I will do what I have to do. I hope you will too.